Pizza with God

“Blessed are the clean of heart,

For they will see God.”

Seeing God

A lot of times I have just wanted to sit and have lunch with God. You know, maybe by a little window in a restaurant, eating some pizza and talking about life. Although it seems childish and earthly, it would be something that would make me feel humanly close to my Lord.

But I have the opportunity to feel the same or even greater intimacy with Him without sharing a slice of pizza. We all do. But why don’t we?

Jithin Chettan said “I discovered that one of my paradigms was that personal prayer was not possible everyday”.

It was my paradigm too.

If personal prayer was something that would clean my heart each day, and allow the Lord to enter me, wouldn’t I do it? Isn’t it much more practical than waiting for a day to come when God decides to become incarnate again to go out for some pizza with me?

Then why is it that I avoided sitting a while with Him? Was it my laziness or that I thought that our conversation was only one sided?

Was our conversation one sided or was it that that my heart was too busy discerning my will that I did not hear His side of the conversation?

If I want to see God, It is my job to clean my heart.

When I go up to receive Him everyday, am I really clean enough?

Am I even a little bit worthy for Him to come inside of me and love me?

I know I am not.

But why is He is filling me up with so much love for Him, that I cannot stop myself from receiving Him into me, into my unworthy self, when I do not even give half of that love back to Him?

Knowing His overwhelming love for me, why am I giving importance to worldly things, thus depriving Him of the love that He should be receiving from me?

I have lunch with Him everyday, but I don’t even realize it.