28 days left

During Rosary today, something came to my mind. The trip is supposed to be a life changing experience. How can it be life changing if it is not dedicated to the Lord. It got me thinking that maybe the reason why every fire died out in my heart was because I never bothered dedicating events to my Father.

I realize that if I want this trip to make something out of my unworthy life, it needs to be surrendered to God so that He can use my life to do His will.

Every time I am asked to surrender my life to Him, and each time I try. But it doesn't quite work out. Is it because I don't know how to surrender or that I surrender my life and then take it back...?..I don't really know.

I don't want this try to be another failed attempt.

On a more happier note, Advent preparations are going well. I have been able to stick to my promise so far (2 days!...pathetic but still a personal victory).

Maybe it will help me get rid of some negative vibes! *hopefully..*

"I find Your beautiful eyes see everything, so show me something beautiful please" -Kevin Max